First day of abnormality

[reviews_and_ramblings]

Yesterday night I was in bed trying to act normal, but it's too soon. Thanks to everyone for your wishes I read everyone and they give me warm.

Today I will not go to work, my mother and I will go to my uncle's house, carrying food and comfort (in Italy seems that these two things go together...)

During the night police has found the murderer: he is a young guy like my cousin, from Serbia, and his parents have managed to help him to escape in Serbia soon after the murder. Probably police will never find him again.

I don't know how to react: when first I hear the news, my first thought was "he is a guy like my cousin, maybe he had had reason to act like that", but then I thought at how he has murdered my cousin, ten stab in all the body and my cousin has tried to defend, and so hungry and pain flare in me and I want him in prison and not free to act like that again. But then again I think "he is only a boy"... World is so cruel, and you can't find reason anywhere.

Comments

[willa-writes.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss, Elisa. I don't know what to say, but my heart goes out to you and your family. *hugs*

[julesjones]

It's too soon to act normally. It's going to hurt for a long time, and it will hurt even worse for a while when the shock wears off, just as you think you're starting to get over it. But eventually there will come a day when it will not be the first thing you think of when you wake up.