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reviews_and_ramblings) wrote2010-01-15 12:49 am
reviews_and_ramblings) wrote2010-01-15 12:49 am
Yes, this is me having a temper tantrum
I'm reposting only the closing sentence of a mail I sent to someone just minutes ago. No name, not preface, the recipient knows all and this is the only thing that counts.
"I don't deserve to be also the recipient of the bad mood caused by other. I don't need it, above all not in this moment. I'm tired to loose people I believed were friends, too many people are teaching me that I have no friends out there."
And now I know that many of you are friends, that you all are out there looking for me, that I have not to worry when something like that happens, that it's normal to remove a friend on LJ. BUT FOR ME IT'S NOT. If you are a common friend, someone who comments once every six months, who came to me since I write review, and then decides you don't like them no more, you can go, and I have no problem.
But if you are someone who called me sister, who claimed to be my friend, who was always ready to give me a good word when I was down, when you have my private email, HOW YOU CAN DELETE me from your friend list without even telling me goodbye, how can I receive that cold message "xxx removed you from their Friends list"? HOW?
I DON'T DESERVE THAT. Not ever, but above all not now, not today, not this week. BTW THANK YOU for chosing the worst week in the year, for doing that. Perfect timing "friend".
"I don't deserve to be also the recipient of the bad mood caused by other. I don't need it, above all not in this moment. I'm tired to loose people I believed were friends, too many people are teaching me that I have no friends out there."
And now I know that many of you are friends, that you all are out there looking for me, that I have not to worry when something like that happens, that it's normal to remove a friend on LJ. BUT FOR ME IT'S NOT. If you are a common friend, someone who comments once every six months, who came to me since I write review, and then decides you don't like them no more, you can go, and I have no problem.
But if you are someone who called me sister, who claimed to be my friend, who was always ready to give me a good word when I was down, when you have my private email, HOW YOU CAN DELETE me from your friend list without even telling me goodbye, how can I receive that cold message "xxx removed you from their Friends list"? HOW?
I DON'T DESERVE THAT. Not ever, but above all not now, not today, not this week. BTW THANK YOU for chosing the worst week in the year, for doing that. Perfect timing "friend".
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I reduced my flist awhile back mostly to cut down on distraction, and I've been dropped from others' lists for similar reasons, so to me it isn't a big deal one way or another, but a couple of folks were distressed, so I posted an explanation. I wish there were a way to stop watching someone's posts without necessarily 'defriending' them.
Get better, don't worry... internet friendship can be wonderful, or it can be abused. You have so many people on your f-list that a certain percentage are bound to be disappointing.