What You Wish For by Alex Marcus-Jacobs

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At the end of once more bad relationship, Jared, nickname Jaybird, is on despair to be able to find the right girl. And when a tarot card reader tells him that maybe he is not searching in the right place, that he has to go under a drastic change, Jaybird doesn’t exactly understand what she means. From what I understood, Jaybird comes from a very small town in deep Canada, and he has never once considered that maybe he is “different”. He did everything his parents expected from him, and another step in that path is to find the right girl and marry her. He has never considered that there could be another way for him.

But slowly Jaybird is taking his length from his parents’ expectations, and the first step was to choose Music instead of Business as college degree. Then he moved to a big city (or rather bigger than the one he was living in) and he made new friends. Many things are changing around him and maybe now he is more ready to see things from a different perspective. So when he enters by chance, and mistake, a gay club, and starts to chat with the owner, Nicol, he is maybe not ready for the offer he receives, but he is willing to consider it.

It’s quite funny, all Jaybird’s troubles in life and relationships are quite clear to a gay romance reader, but not to Jaybird, he has probably not the right background to understand them. It’s not only the gay thing, it’s also all the D/s’s implication; Jaybird is not able to have a right relationship with a woman since he is the one who would like to be dominated, and all the women he met in the past are a carbon copy of his own mother, probably a simple and nice woman, whose only interest was to raise a family and make happy her own husband… Jaybird is searching for a woman like that, since he was taught that is what he has to do, but deep inside himself, he would instead prefer to be that woman. He doesn’t want to be the one to take care of for someone else; he would like to be the cherished one. He wants someone to tell him what to do, when to do and how to do it. Not only in life but also during sex. Probably, if Jaybird was searching in the right place, he would have been some chances to find a woman like that, but it’s obvious that it’s not what he really wants.

I quite liked the hints on the possible future relationship between Jaybird and Nicol, not only the D/s is not so strong to be too much troubling for me, but I also have a soft spot for the May/December relationship, and between Jaybird and Nicol there is the right age difference, 10 years of something that give to Nicol the right skills to be Jaybird’s master. The story is too short to give you a full understanding of this new relationship, but there are good basis, and I think the author has in mind to write more.

On a side note, I also liked Jaybird’s persona in relationship with his friends and schoolmates. It gives the idea that Jaybird is really still a “baby”, not yet tainted by life. When he is down, being with his friends or playing videogames is still the main way to let it all go. He is living in a college dorm, he is still studying, but at the same time he is taking some life changing decision… Jaybird is in that moment of life when everything is still on stake, everything is still possible. This is probably the best and worst time of his life.

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Amazon Kindle: What You Wish For: The Nine of Cups

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Comments

[amj-stygian.livejournal.com]

Hee! Wonderful, thank you, miss Rolle, for reviewing What You Wish For.

There IS a sequel in the works, a full-length piece that explores the developing relationship. And you're pretty close on the age... Jared's 24, Nicol 37.

[elisa-rolle.livejournal.com]

You are welcome. I will wait for the sequel. Elisa